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Shtark
You are not OTD. Not in the slightest. Now get off the internet and back to yeshiva/sem/kollel
Modernish
Nu, ok so you don't wear a black hat 100% of the time. That doesn't mean you're OTD. Moshe Rabeinu's hat was also not black!
Bum
Look, your problem isn't with yiddishkeit, but with self-discipline. You just can't overcome the yetzer hora. Had you been born a goy, you would also amount to nothing.
100% OTD
You are off the derech and you know it. Are you bitter about your frum upbringing? You bet! Are you going to drown it in bacon fat? Hell yea!
Basically a goy
Off the derech? What's a 'deretsh'? The whole thing is so far behind you that you're barely even Jewish anymore!
In the closet
Coming out as OTD would put coming out as gay to shame. You're so deep in the closet that you have to pretend to be extra frum so that no one suspects a thing.
